Religion And Gay Rights
wow. its been longer than a year since i last posted here, and im still just as miserable.
the post i made in my lj was just the usual rambly bs, and ive got other things to post about. for instance, the fight i got in with matt froid, which is going in here.
i sent out a forward that said, what would you ask me if you knew i only had a day to live? matt asked me if i believed in jesus. heres the dialogue.
me:umm...im really not into monotheistic religion. im sorry matt. :(
matt:so you believe in more than one god?
me:well like native american spirituality
matt:like what is it exactly?
me:like theres a spirit for everything...and everyone is on the same level. then when you die you become part of an eternal spirit. im still learning about it. its a little different than other religions ive looked at.
matt:oh. well everyone is equal in gods eyes too. and when you die you become your own spirit.
me:yeah. even though im not a christian i know that jesus was a great man and he helped tonnes of people
matt:and he was spit upon mocked beaten and died nailed to a cross so we could have eternal life
me:exactly. hes the ultimate role model. because he just turned the other cheek and still kept preaching his message
matt:exactly. so why dont you believe in him? like if you can admit that much about him why dont just accept him as your saviour as well?
me:well...im not a christian. i mean, wouldnt it be wrong?
matt:wouldnt what be wrong?
me:like since im not exactly a christian wouldnt it be wrong for me to accept jesus?
matt:no that would make you a christian. like the only object of your faith should be christ and what he did on the cross. thats what a christian is someone who puts their care and faith in jesus.
me:i know. i just dont know if im prepared to be a christian. with all the rules and shtuff. and correct me if im wrong but ive heard lots of anti gay and anti abortion beliefs from the christian community
matt:because its true. i used to be for gay rights and pro choice. but its in the bible black and white. and its just like would you rather spend eternity with your creator in bliss or spend eternity away from him in pain? like so what if there is rules or if youre held to a higher standard. people need to not live how they want to but how they should. the lord holds you to a higher standard for a reason. sin gets in the way of you and god and youre supposed to hold yourself to a moral standard. like look at like why should you get to do something as a christian. so why not give up your life to the person who created you and knew every sin you would ever commit and everytime you would ever turn him being in your life down. he wants to know you and have a relationshiop with you morgy!
me:i really would like to be a christian and all. that promise of eternal love and happiness is appealing. but i cant just let go of gay rights and pro choice beliefs. so im ripped in half. the way i think of it is if god created us and loves us all then why did he create gays? and what if its just the common belief now and itll pass? like back in the old days when the churches wouldnt allow blacks. or in medeival times when the church said bad things about women and jews
matt:well he didnt really create them its a choice. they could stop if they wanted. and its different like there are actual bible verses about gays. and the pro choice is just killing a baby.
me::/ i dont know matt. ive tried to stop before and i cant. even therapy isnt helping. i know ill probably go to hell and burn in the deepest circle if i dont stop now, because im such a sinner. but everyone is entitled to their own beliefs, even if those beliefs are wrong. you are a convincing persnon though. you really ought to be a preacher or something.
matt:im just telling the truth i know in my life. and morgy you can stop with christ.
me:to each their own. im sorry matt.
i wasnt pissed when i got done with that argument. but its just like what the fuck? im going to look up those bible verses. its romans 26 and 26, king james version.
im just really confused because most religions arent for gays. yet there are still people who go against their religion and are for gay rights. half the reason why i dont have a real religion is because the branches fight with one another. they have different interpretations and beliefs. i dont like it.
i just wanted to get that off my phone. i wanted to save it. now im off to either msn space or xanga to post the interesting dreams ive had. see ya.
